“Er….” he gave her a half wince, half cheesy grin, “Sorta going in blind? I have a beat already if that helps?”
She can’t help it, she laughs. Her palm goes right to her forehead, a nice smack resounding as she giggles. “How did I know?” Marq gives him a look of amused disbelief. “What would you do without me?”
Thomas nodded, “That’s a good idea, I do have quite a bit of footage that didn’t quite make it into some other videos, I’ll do that.”
Marq nodded back and smiled, pleased at being able to help him. “Cool! And after this, you’ll be right back on the ball! I believe in you!”
His shoulders dropped and he let out a soft sigh, “I guess you’re right, you usually are, I just get so caught up with all of this that I lose focus of any sort of self care and I know it’s bad, that’s why I’m glad to have you. You’re the best.”
“There’s nothing wrong with having drive and being motivated.” Her voice evens out to a more gentle tone now that’s she’s got his full attention, stance softening and arms returning to her sides. “I know this is important to you, but you can’t ignore your health for a video. You can form a bad habit really quickly like that, and habits are much harder to break than they are to form.” She smiles at him. “How about I make us a couple turkey melts and some juice? That way you can get something healthy and warm in your belly.”
A silent nod came from the male and he gently wrapped a caring arm around her, “I’ll stay with you as long as you need, whatever you’re telling yourself that you did wrong is false, you’ve done nothing wrong, I’ve had a splendid time with you Marq, and even now I’m enjoying being around you, everything’s okay. I promise.”
Her lower lip wobbles and she tucks her face into his neck, wrapping her arms around his middle and half curling into his lap. She doesn’t try to talk, knows she won’t be able to, and just feels the way his chest moves as he breathes deeply. He’s soft and warm and safe, and she feels the tension leave her even though she still can’t stop crying. It’s not okay yet, but it will be. She trusts him.
“I understand, the world is tough and pursuing what you love and want to do is tougher but you got this, I honestly keep up this happiness and motivation to keep others inspired to do the same, my fans need it.” Thomas booped her nose gently, “And a special someone is obviously looking up to it, so I must be doing something right.”
Marq blew a raspberry at him and grabbed his hand, playing with his fingers for a moment before twining them together. “God, why are you such a nerd, you nerd.” She’s smiling though, wide and happy. All traces of the earlier self-doubt are gone and she’s telling herself to just enjoy him for now. For once, it actually works. “You’re lucky you’re so cute.”
(( @blucboy is feeling down. ))
“You can– you do.” Marq had never seen him so upset before. She didn’t like it, frowns just didn’t suit his face. “Ethan, believe me. Even if you can’t see it the things you do affect people. The positive energy that you put out, the kindness that you show, it helps people.” Like me, she wants to say. But this isn’t about her. “I’ve read the comments, the tweets, the tumblr posts. I couldn’t count on both hands the amount of people that have said you helped them through dark times, lifted their spirits, made them feel worth something. That’s the world to some people, Ethan. How could you not see that?”
(( @blucboy has chips! ))
“Oh!” She startles at the boy suddenly addressing her. She’d been kind of enraptured with his hair, it was bright blue and she couldn’t help trying to imagine which agents would make it. She made a mental note to ask Claire after her red faded out a bit. Oh how she loved the fire engine red of her hair, but that blue was just amazing. “Oh yeah! I was!” A flush slowly settles on her cheeks but she hardly notices. She’s used to it when talking to strangers. “Aw what? It gave you free chips? My stuff always gets stuck! My friend told me I was crazy but I knew that thing hated me!”
(( @blucboy is adamant about this heart to heart. ))
“I’m surprised, I didn’t even know you could do the tough love thing.” The joke kind of falls flat as she turns his words over in her head. ‘Sometimes you have to accept that they don’t feel that way about you anymore, even if you still do.’ “We were together for so long, ya know? It’s just… weird without her.” Marq kind of nods slowly to herself. “But I mean, you’re right. I’m… I’m glad to be out of it, honestly.” She smiles at him, soft and still kind of sad, but getting there. “And I’m glad to have you here to talk it through with me.”
For every “♡” I get I’ll give a tip on how to win my muse’s heart.
Thomas sat down next to her gently, “Is your anxiety getting ahead of you again buddy? Take deep breaths alright? I’ll bring you some warm, soothing tea if you’d like? I know you want to tell yourself you’re okay but you’re on the verge of a meltdown and that’s not okay. Let me help.”
“Can you just…” She wipes a hand over her face. The tears won’t stop. She’s huddled in the corner of the couch, just crying her eyes out. This was supposed to be fun. They were supposed to be having fun. They were gonna hang out and do stuff and be friends and she just fucked it up she fucked it all up it’s all her fault it’s- “…stay with me?”